Full Moon Release
The energy around this full Harvest moon and Lunar Eclipse in Pisces occurrence happening tonight into tomorrow morning has been intense. Leading up to today, the weather has been so pleasant. The humidity lifted and the days truly feel like summer is fading into autumn. It's a refreshing change from the heat.
This is my moment. It's the time when I shine from the inside out, radiating pumpkin brulee everything, to everyone, everywhere I go. This is when my camera battery is always charged up and we are out on the weekends marveling at life's little nothings and mama earth's bountiful gifts of corn, apples, berries, flowers, cider made from those apples, wine made from her grapes, and leaves, leaves, and more leaves.
That time is coming. I can feel it just around the bend. But in this moment, this emotional / feely / watery / heavy moon / tears will not stop moment, I am inside of the release. My face tightened from all the tears I cried yesterday. I questioned everything about myself and my life. It was deep and totally dramatic. But then . . .
I had a very clear moment when I remembered to do two things: the first was look at the calendar and note where we are on the lunar cycle. This moon in Pisces. I began to read everything I could find written about this moon as a way to justify my feels. But then I was like, whatever . . . Did I really care to know or should I just be in it? And why do my feels need to be examined or justified. As a water sign in the midst of seasonal transition on a full moon, I will have my cry and not apologize for it.
Second: This is a combo of get quiet, let be, forgive, and love. Getting quiet is key. Turning the phone volume off and moving into the kitchen was the medicine I needed. My stand mixer got some lovin' as did my springform pans and baking spices. I quietly and deliberately mixed, assembled, and baked a delicious plum torte (sorry no recipe or pics, I was tuned in and unplugged). The jumbled thoughts in my mind unraveled and settled. My shoulders relaxed. I took deep breaths and landed in a much calmer place.
You guys, when we are in it -and sometimes we just fall into it, no?- it can be so difficult to imagine pulling ourselves up and out. I have created an oil that works as a balm for when we are inside of those days - hours - moments that is a companion and support to our hearts and souls when they are heavy with emotion.
This oil. I'm in love with this oil. It has been my constant companion through Zak's heart issues which we are still going through multiple tests for - including a big test today! (I wrote about that here).
This oil. One of my nearest and dearest friends who reminded me to turn to my oils in times like this, fell in love with this blend. Her words "Girl, the heart chakra blend you sent me is holy shit delicious. It's divine." Yes.
This oil. It has been saving me on days like this when the moon is full and my tear reserves are saturated.
And on the other side of yesterday, I sit here having got through it all in one piece.
Isn't that the way of things sometimes?