Hello! Here I am, smiling from my new studio . . . It has been so long since I've written a blog post that I don't even know what to say. I'm just going to start from scratch and share a couple of things that have been happening in my life as if we were conversing face to face.
I'm on my laptop right now because I decided it was time I sat down and figured out how to export my old blogs off of the Typepad platform and plug them into a private Blogger account so that I could always have access to them for free. I have been paying the $14.95 a month fee to keep my Typepad account active so that I don't lose my words . . . because I was afraid of the export / import process . . . and well, today I decided that that was a bunch of BS and I could totally do it. It was SO easy, I don't know what I was afraid of. (Old blogs are currently importing into new, private, and free space as I type).
First I'd like to apologize for the green haze on that photo above. No matter how much I played around trying to adjust the light / contrast / shadows, it just would not stop looking green to me! But . . . this is the most current photo of me and I am not cringing when I look at it.
We moved our family business to an empty apartment space in a house my father owns. In that move, I gained my own private room with a door for privacy should I need it. My oil business has been growing steadily since last summer and I really needed a 12 x 12 room to house it. I spoke with my dad and brother (my co-workers) about creating my business space inside of our family business space, so that I could be present if they needed me (which seems to be less and less now) while devoting my time to tending and growing my budding, growing oil biz. It made sense to all of us so I went out and bought some paint. I had a friend throw a fresh coat on the walls and Zak (my husband) helped me move all of my oil making supplies to the new studio space. I love what I created and now I love the place I get to go to work. I'm excited to wake up and go which had not been my reality for that last two years.
The last couple of years have been very rough for me emotionally and mentally. Grief. Trauma. PTSD. Chronic pain. All of that lives in my bones, my cells. There has been surrender but not in a dramatic fashion. It's an understanding my heart has reached. My brain feels ready to receive and repair. I've gained a lot of weight. I'm so mad with myself about it. I feel heavy. And lost. And like I failed myself. I feel this way because of society, because of what's been taught to me, because of how I feel in this skin of mine, and because I get to feel how I want to feel and right now I'm disheartened with a whole lotta hope. It's a moment.
I started doing Keto. I have done many diets for weight loss that have not worked. Keto is a lifestyle that many have had amazing weight loss results with. It's been said to help heal multiple medical ailments and help you feel better overall in the mental wellness department. I have zero facts to back up these statements. All I can share is that I personally know many people who are doing this lifestyle who have lost weight and feel amazing. I'm researching as I'm going (a good place to start is ruled.me - and keep researching while checking in with how your body feels. *I'm not an expert or a dietician.
In a couple of days, I'll be changing the domain name of this site over to my business name: Intention Blends by Bella and when doing so, I'm letting go of this blog.
Not to worry! I have set up a new blog space - and I really mean NEW - as in I am still setting it up. But, bookmark it if you are wanting to follow along on my Summertime journey of doing Keto and making YouTube videos tracking the process. Here is the link: https://deelovelee.wixsite.com/shetoldstories - there is nothing there yet, I'll be setting it up this week. But, expect loads of content on the regular.
Thanks for listening and being here today. And thanks for not trying to fix it for me. I am beginning. Again. And? I've missed you. xo B